summerpoem88

On a Christmas day

2009-12-25T21:13:00.004+08:00

Here I am today, on a Christmas day. Not sure why but I just felt like sharing some stuff with whoever is reading this.

I spent my hours reading this book titled 'Medalon' realizing later on about some things that I haven't been thinking of lately. I guess I have been slacking for a while and taking for granted that my life will never end. But when I read about this girl who tried to survive the tortures that tormented her, it somehow made me realize about how my life had been so easy. I used to complain about why my life's so difficult and complicated but when I really look at it, it's actually nothing compared to the girl's in the book. Sometimes, life has it's ups and downs. When it's up, we tend to fly sky high, feel proud of ourselves and most of the time, forget the ones who helped us and look down on the ones who failed. But when we are down, we feel the pain, the heartache and wished that we could have done better.

A few days ago, my grandma came over to give me some cookery lessons. During her stay, as any grandmother would do, they'd tell their stories. She would spent hours talking about her life when she was young and sometimes it would even go on for 3 hours straight! She talked about how life was during war times. There would be all sorts of people...people who would kill any sort of animals just to keep themselves alive, people who would just kill a human and spare no mercy just for survival. You could see slaughtered heads hanging on trees, bodies dug by the roadside and smell the corps while walking on the only road you are allowed to walk on. As she went on with her stories, I looked at her and thought to myself, "she had so little at that time and yet she's able to achieve so much more than I have now." When I say achieve so much more than I have, I meant in the sense that she's able to survive better than me.

I took a good look at myself in the mirror and saw just a girl. A girl who's forehead's so full of pimples just like any teenager, a pair of eyes, a nose and a mouth just like every other human being. And I asked myself how am I different from the others now? I couldn't answer. I guess I am no different. I'm just like all the 95% of the world's human population out there...going on with life like it's a cycle and making no difference. But somehow, by some miracle during this Christmas, I woke up from a miserable dream that life's like a bed of roses. Life's definitely nothing like that. It's like a war you have to fight to get to where you want to be. You got to keep going on even when there's somebody or something that's in your way. And when you are the best, you got to keep getting better! You never stop climbing the stairs until the day you die. I suppose it's time for me to get out of the 95% human population and step foot into the 5% human population!

Sacred

2009-12-08T17:28:00.003+08:00

Every journey lies a story to be told
Every star lies a light to be shone
Every sky lies the blue to be seen
Every human lies a heart to be shared.

Each man has his treasure
Each woman has his measure
Whom of which carries the same level
Both carries the sacred heart to be marveled.

Teardrops

2009-11-08T19:27:00.004+08:00

Rain and storm

Hear the pitter patter
Feel the strong wind rushing
On your skin, the touch of rain

Close your eyes
Erase the background play
Listen to her heart beat
Listen to those quiet teardrops

Each tear is its own
Each unique
Each has its memory
Listen to the whispers they carry

The day you touched rain
Is the day you shall remember
You made her cry
Her teardrops...your raindrops

2009-08-29T14:11:00.003+08:00

Sometimes GOODBYE is a SECOND CHANCE. =D

Only One

2009-08-15T17:10:00.002+08:00

Like the rain
I fall
I touch the skin of the people
But only caress one heart

Like the piano
I play a melody
I send a message no one understands
Only to one

Like the bird above the tree
I sing a song
Not for all to hear
But only for the one

My heart
Stolen by many
But only one holds it
Only one keeps it

Quote of the Day!

2009-08-07T15:12:00.003+08:00

When you have something in your hands, you take for granted that it'll always be there until the day it's gone...you'll start wishing that you would have done better.

Quote of the Day!

2009-07-31T19:58:00.003+08:00

It was her actions, her choices...
It was finding the path when it looked like there weren't any paths to be found that changed her.

Passerby

2009-07-22T16:55:00.004+08:00

People
Friends
Lovers
They come and they go

They put on a smile so real
And they linger by you
Their disappearance...
Only Fate knows

The memories they left behind
The hole in your heart they drilled
Only you know
Only you preserve

In the end
They're just another soul
Another person looking for hope
Another passerby in life

Spirit of Memories

2009-07-21T20:34:00.003+08:00

The hills stood tall
Birds flew in a flock
Soft wind blew gently
Caressing me like a little baby

As I sat here with nature
I began to dream
I bravely opened my hidden invisible box
And out came the spirit of memories!

They danced their little dances
Each given a name
Of 'Sorrow'
'Joy' and 'Love'

Every step, every move
I watched all through the night
Yet within those dances
I learn and my past...recalled.

Quote of the Day!

2009-07-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I don't get it. I try to help, but that's what I get in the end. Maybe it isn't worth helping after all.

See

2009-07-10T21:29:00.004+08:00

Face as hard as stone
Eyes as cold as ice
Her smile, a rare one
Her features, no guys pries

One look
You'll see a leaf as a leaf
A book nothing but a book
And another judgement she'll have to live

Who she is, you do not see
What she is, you see
How she feels, you do not feel
What she pictures, you believe

You think you know it all
But have you ever asked?
Ever searched the truth from her eyes?
Which part of me do you see?

Quote of the Day!

2009-07-09T22:51:00.002+08:00

Blow a kiss goodbye and throw all the pain you had away!

Quote of the Day!

2009-07-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

Fly with your heart...not your wings!

Who you are

2009-07-03T15:19:00.005+08:00

Step the way you step
Fly the way you fly
Dance the way you dance
Speak the way you speak
I love who you are for who you are

The Mist

2009-06-29T14:39:00.003+08:00

A friend once told me
The mist are the ones that blinds
Walk by them
And you'll see what you want to see

The mist are the ones that frightens
Their thick vapour hovering the surrounds
Stay strong and listen to their whispers
A better person you will be

The mist are the ones that isolate
Though you'll lose some friends on the way
Keep yourself together
And you'll find that friends are in fact everywhere

A friend once told me
The mist are the particles that stay by you
Carry them on your shoulders and you'll learn lessons
Face them and you'll own your life

Quote of the Day!

2009-06-24T10:57:00.002+08:00

Dearest Determination,

I'll step no further than where I am today without you.

Quote of the Day!

2009-06-18T14:38:00.006+08:00

I know I'm running a lifetime marathon for my dreams, but I know I'll reach them even when I'm close to dying!

Dearest Star

2009-06-17T00:59:00.002+08:00

There I stood at my balcony

In the night so dark

The breeze brushing my hair

The stars twinkling to make me smile

A tear rolled down my cheeks

As I start to wonder

Is this all worth it?

Is loving everything?

Dearest star

One moment my heart was closed

The other opened by one I thought true

The next shattered by whom I dreamt

Dearest star

It doesn't matter no more

But deep down.....it hurts

Is this all worth it?

Make It Worth Living

2009-06-16T23:16:00.003+08:00

Every beginning is a failure

Every ending is a new beginning

Every step is a lesson

Every day is a gift to us all

No raindrop rises

No sun falls

But there's the vivid colours of the rainbow

And the precious sunlight we seek every dawn

No man is a champion

No woman is the most beautiful

No love is the best

There's always a better to compete

No living thing live to the fullest

No beauty last till the end

So take all that has been given

And make your life worth living!

Piano

2009-06-16T22:58:00.003+08:00

Close your eyes and listen

Beyond the crowd of noises

Listen to that piano playing

Listen to my heart beating

Listen to its melody

The notes that flows with emotions

Understand each key that streams by

Understand me

Close your eyes and just listen

See the picture no one sees

Touch what others cannot touch

For the piano is me

Quotes of the Day!

2009-06-12T14:40:00.003+08:00

Words mean nothing. It's what you do that makes them mean something.

Every heart once broken, has a price to pay.

Life & Death

2009-05-16T23:30:00.004+08:00

Today I saw life and death

I had a glimpse into their eyes

Of pain and fear

Hearts as weak as water

Today I saw life and death

I watched them cry

I feel their screams of torture

Their soul...empty

Men crying to their wives

Children looking with innocent eyes

The place filled with noise

Yet silent as an empty vessel

Today I saw life and death

Cold and fear was everywhere

Their hearts beat...slowly

Their eyes closes...locked.

Once...

2009-04-27T17:42:00.004+08:00

One day they're here

The next they disappear

The world's an illusion

With no conclusion

Once, a heart in my hands

The next, it turns into fine sand

Nothing lasts forever I see

For even love shall be blown to sea

Once, a key kept locked in my chest

Now it's been sold to the west

Will I ever see the key to my treasure?

Probably not ever till my time has measure.

Two Candles

2009-04-02T18:04:00.004+08:00

As I close my eyes

I see two candles

Burning with such a flame

Beautiful yet so dull

Their flames so orange at the top

Black at the bottom

Blue in the middle

Their glow a magnificent one

Their flame dances with confusion

Not able to stay facing each other

Their invisible heart stolen by the wind

Leaving them with no love to feel

Just the pure beauty they are left to project.

Girl with a mask

2009-03-20T18:22:00.004+08:00

There stood a girl
Lonely and deserted as she's always been

No one sees what she's like, a dying pearl

Neither has her beauty ever been seen

As she walks pass you

Do you smell her sweet, natural smell?

Or do you comment on her only dress in blue

And curse her with such a spell?

As she sits next you

Do you see her long, silky hair?

Though from the outside

They're nothing but strands here and there

As you look into her pure, innocent eyes

Do you look pass it like you've always did

Or do you see her for who she really is?

An ugly mask she may wear

But behind that mask

Lay a beautiful angel you've never dreamt

The one who's always there

But never noticed anywhere

An Unfair Life

2009-01-30T20:24:00.004+08:00

Last Wednesday, we visited an orphanage home...meant for all unwanted indian children. The place was one of the few we can never forget because of what we see and of what aura we feel from there. No pictures can show how it is there. One will have to experience it...feel it. Then again, no doubt about the poorness of these children but even from the first moment you see these wonderful children, you'll see how happy they are. They're just one big, happy family!

Here's a conversation I would love to share with everyone:

Anonymous: So where does these children come from?

Founder : Some are from police cases. Some are left here by their mothers. Some were

found unwanted.

Anonymous: Oh, I see. By the way, I've noticed how many gods you all pray to.

Three Gods. Thats an awful lot. But the children are all Hindus. Why three

different Gods? There's the Hindu, Buddhist and Christian God.

Founder : (Chuckles) Well, we'll need all the help we can get dont you think?

That is how desperate they are for help. We people have everything we should have and to keep ourselves living. But yet, we complain and complain about the tiniest problems. Whereas, these unwanted children live with all they have and only hope for a miracle. So here's something I'll live for you to think about for the day: Do you still think that your life is an unfair one?

Lyrics or Melody?

2008-12-20T17:26:00.004+08:00

Tell me my friend

When a song begins to play

Which do you listen to?

Meaningful lyrics or just the melody played?

Close your eyes my friend

And listen to the calming wind

Do you hear nothing but the wind itself

Or do you hear the words spoken to?

Close your eyes my dear friend

And listen to the beating waves

Do you hear nothing but water lapping

Or do you hear the music that lies within?

Do you see a leaf as leaf

Or perhaps a leaf as a tree?

Do you see her as a figure

Or do you see her for who she is?

Goodbye Friends

2008-11-27T11:10:00.006+08:00

Pure tears flowing down those cheeks
Hugs by those I’ve spent my life with
And as I look into their eyes that speaks
I reminisce the times we have been kith and kin

As I watch each tear drip
I remember the moments we had together
All memories of us go on like a filmstrip
Nothing to end it just like a floating feather

What do I do now my dear friend?
Where would our separation lead us?
If I’m at the end of my tether, who would I depend?
If I have jokes to share with, who would laugh along with such joyous?

Therewith, before we bid goodbye
Just remember this one last message:

“After today, we shall set foot at different pathway
Whether we look back or keep our thoughts forward
Do not forget the memories and journey we’ve built in our roadway
Always remember the bridge of friendship between us.”

Pebble

2008-10-18T19:40:00.004+08:00

Sometimes hot

Sometimes cold

Sometimes I shiver in the day

Sometimes I sweat in the night

Which of which

I do not know

But what I seek

Is what I do know

I seek for a pebble

So plain yet so special

So black yet so bright

So dull yet so lively

And when I throw it into the ocean

Back to me will the pebble be

And when I put it into poison

Corrode will it not

And when I crack it with a hammer

Unbreakable will the pebble stay

And when I throw it down onto the ground

No chips shall be seen

But when my tears drips upon its body

It shall shatter into pieces like broken glasses

For it feels what I feel

And shares the pain deep within me

And when I am down and lonely

It'll shine its brightess

For it knows I shall need a hug

But all it can do is illuminate through the dark

This pebble I seek

So plain yet so special

Is one I know I shall never have

For indeed, it is a treasure one shall have to seek.

Last Wave

2008-10-18T13:06:00.004+08:00

I bid goodbye

I bid farewell

And I hope all is by-the-by

And all is well

We have been friends

We have been foes

We were bands

Of uncommon souls

Gone through we have

Of bumpy and rocky roads

But time has arrived for our last wave
And treasure memoirs together as unforgettable loads

Thus my lass

Memories of you I shall not cast

And to hope this meeting shall not pass

For our friendship will never turn to dust

Rich Men

2008-10-11T22:47:00.007+08:00

As our lives change

We change

The poor are our last

The rich are our must

As we climb the ladder

We forgot those below

We left ourselves at the border

Until we become the same old blunder

We blossom into men with greeds

Into men with respect

But yet no respect from all

And to think we are successful in every way

We acknowledge those rich and famous

But do we acknowledge the kind we once were?

We try to please the rich and pompous

But do we please the poor and humble?

SMKDU Graduation Day 2008!

2008-10-11T15:56:00.014+08:00

Graduation 2008!

I'll miss everyone! 5 Belian is the best thing thats ever happened to me! =)

I love you guys!!! =)

Quotes of the Day!

2008-09-13T14:15:00.006+08:00

It's not whether you get knocked down, it's whether you get up!

Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you cando!

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One of The Few

2008-06-16T17:53:00.004+08:00

What do we fear the most?

Speaking perhaps

What do we want the most?

To achieve something we know it will be difficult to chase.

How many of us are brave enough to chase those dreams?

Only a few.

And I am glad to say that I am that few

Because I know I am only a few more steps away!!!

The Lark

2008-05-17T19:31:00.004+08:00

It was dark

And it was cold

But she slept only because of the lark

Which sang a story to be told

The lark said and hoped she could understand:

"I'm sorry I did not listen

And ended up on the bloody sand

For I was too stubborn to understand

I'm sorry for my leaving you

And to not leave a word of goodbye

I'm sorry that the songs I now sing for you

Are only a miserable bye

I wish I could shed a tear too

Whenever you began to cry for me

But nothing seems to fall out of my beady eyes

Though my tiny heart skips a beat each time you cry

I wish I could be human again

And to tell you I'm your unworthy son

Just so you don't have to go through knives and thorns

To search for your already dead son

I had the chance when I was human

But I guess I chose not to

And all I can do now as a lark

Is to chirp and hope one day you'll understand

That I am your son

And I want to say ' I love you, mother!' "

A tear rolled down her bony cheeks

And then she said in return

With her eyes still fast asleep

"I love you too, my son."

Freeze Time

2008-04-18T23:43:00.003+08:00

They say

Every happy moments must come to an end

Just like every leading way

There will eventually be a dead end

But oh how I wish

I wish I could freeze this moment

And to not give everyone a flying kiss

For this shall only be the one and only moment

To see those smiling faces

To hear their silvery coated laughters

And to know that the love from all have filled my heart's spaces

There is nothing more I can ask

But oh how I wish

I wsih I could freeze this day

And to hope that everyday was like today

For it is the day all memorable moments lay

No Complacence

2008-04-04T23:44:00.004+08:00

I shed no tear

I keep no fear

I cry not for you

And I fear not for you

I treat you with respect

But do you give me the same aspect?

I do not condemn

But all you do is only comment

I always abide by your wishes

But you don't seem to take that in account

You treat mine like some dishes

Where you munch and turn them into unknown sounds

I do not complain for all your extensions

I only listen and hope to gain some connection

I've tried to be complaisant

But you never seem to be complacent

The Pride of My Life!

2008-03-17T15:07:00.005+08:00

This is the pride of my life! So proud of myself...=)

Thank You Foes

2008-03-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

They're nothing much

And they're nothing less

They are my foes

Just like my friends

My foes, my enemies

They are my source of achievements

They are my source of success

They're the ones who pulls me up when I fall

They are the rain which scatters onto my body

And I am the pond that accepts and forgive

For as long as they fall onto me

I shall soon become a sea

For that

I thank you my dear foes

And thus

Greatful for your presence shall I be

White Daisies

2008-03-06T14:52:00.009+08:00

I saw a man standing by the seller

He held a bouquet of white daisies

Beautiful and glorious they were

Like the morning dew

Ask I did

For whom they were meant for

Answered indeed

"For the one I love most, of course."

Again he continued

"For the one who is as pure as these"

"For the one who is as lovely as these"

"For she is the one I love most."

He looked outside the window

Waved at a girl of age around 8

Then he pointed at her and said

"My dearest baby sister is the one I love most!"

Happy Anniversary!!!

2008-02-09T10:48:00.002+08:00

It's not the gift

It's not the words

It's the thought

And the love showered

It's not the years
It's not the days
It's the time
And the quality spent together

A ring is no ring without love
A rose is no rose without caress
And thus
You are married for a reason

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!

Rosebud

2008-02-05T18:44:00.004+08:00

I may be a rosebud for now

My petals are fragile and crippled

My colour a fading red

Attractive I am not

But wait I shall

For I shall bloom gracefully

And to prove the world

Of who I actually am

Thus my dear

Wait for me

Wait for that day to arrive

Do not judge of who I am now

Papers, Pen, Words

2008-01-19T22:24:00.001+08:00

I am a shadow

I have no one real

I trust no one

My world is only an illusion

The papers

The pen

And the words

Are the only ones that listens

Papers, Pen, Words

They are my friends

They are my family

They are a part of me

Jigsaw Puzzle

2007-12-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

It's a puzzle isn't it?

A jigsaw puzzle

Where you look for the missing pieces

And make them into a masterpiece

Life is a jigsaw puzzle

Is that what it is?

Where you go through bits and pieces of journey

And when its time for life to end

You suddenly realized the meaning

Of you being in this world

Thats what life is:

A jigsaw puzzle

Scar

2007-12-29T21:34:00.001+08:00

Each scar

No matter how deep

Or how shallow

It is a scar of its own

Each scar

Has its own memories

Its own history

Its own meaning

Each scar made

Will stay forever

No matter how far it heals

Or how faint it is

A New Life

2007-10-25T18:15:00.002+08:00

In a group of ducklings

I was the ugly duckling

Except I never grew into a swan

The beautiful white swan

I am just one person

Lingering among this group

One who haven't succeeded in life

One who've tried but luck turns bad

Perhaps when the snow falls

And when summer begins

A new life is ahead of me

And maybe...just maybe

I shall turn into a beautiful white swan

Her Last Breath

2007-09-28T22:02:00.001+08:00

My dear child

My mama used to say

We are humans

One body, one mind

Just like the others

But like an ugly duckling

We differ from the swans

We are not like the others

We are different...you and I

My dear child

My mama used to say

You and I, we think alike

You and I, we are like sisters

Never brought apart

My dear child oh my dear angel

When I am away, do not fear

When I take a trip to a place where only memories lay

I shall await you there

And watch over you till your time has come

My dear darling oh my baby

Even when my ashes are at shore

Or when my soul wonders

You will always be my baby

And I love you with all my heart
Was what my mama said

Before she released her last gentle breath

Life

2007-09-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes

It's just the way life is

Or the way life goes

In a way none can predict

Changes as we grow

Tougher as we age

Painful day by day

Silence overcomes us all

Melody

2007-08-30T21:14:00.001+08:00

Listen to that melody

Of gentleness and grace

It plays

Lyrics were soft and lovely

To the mind and heart

It dances

Summer or winter

The melody plays on

Remembered in the hearts of the beings

Fake World

2007-08-02T22:59:00.001+08:00

I often wonder

Is the world a fake

Just some legos

Put together

Are the people

Puppets, controlled?

Are the animals

Toys?

Are the trees

And the streams

And the skies

Our illusions?

Did someone from outside Earth

Sprinkle water as rain?

And shine a torch

As our sun?

Did someone place stickers

As our moon and stars?

Is the world

Just some legos put together?

No Point

2007-08-02T22:35:00.001+08:00

What is the point

Of trying?

When you gain nothing

Nothing but rejects

What is the point

Of learning?

When you can't achieve

Anything but tears

What is the point

Of having hopes?

When hopes turns into vapour

And vapour becomes air

Happy Birthday!

2007-08-02T21:58:00.001+08:00

In the darkness worn by the surroundings

Was a light shone afar

The rythm of strength appeared

And then a new day born

Bless the God

For given this day

A special day

For a new born one

On the 25th of June

A baby boy born

With speed, he grows

Till one day

He has a family of his own

He is my father

Grown into a man of wisdom

And today is that special day

To wish him "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

Invisible Box

2007-05-30T19:29:00.001+08:00

There is an invisible box

A box where feelings are kept

A place for sadness

A place for frustrations

A place for loneliness

Invisible as it is

Secretive is the box

As the feelings stored

Are not known to none

True Me

2007-05-24T21:36:00.001+08:00

Look into my dark brown eyes

Tell me what do you see

Do you see me

Or do you see someone else?

Look into my dark brown eyes

Do you feel what I feel?

Are you beginning to understand

Me as me?

Look into my dark brown eyes

Tell me honestly

Do you see my inner beauty?

Have you come to know

The true me?

Mirror

2007-05-24T21:08:00.001+08:00

A mirror

Typical mirror

Reflects images

Of what it sees

Not knowing

What is real

And what is not

Just the act that it sees

Men are mirrors

We see what is not

Just the costume worn

By another man

Is what we acknowledge

Soaring

2007-05-23T18:35:00.001+08:00

In the clear blue sky

The white clouds all drifting

I saw an eagle

Soaring freely to freedom

I saw an eagle

Soaring elegantly

Showing it's beauty

In the sea of clouds

I saw an eagle

Soaring confidently

Towards success

In the bright blue sky

I...

I want to be that eagle

I want to soar

I want to fly

I want to spread my wings

And fly up high!

Define Death

2007-05-23T18:15:00.001+08:00

People live

And people die

Why?

Why must we suffer like this?

One moment they are here

The next they disappear

Life's full of mystery

We cannot predict

Yes, indeed

Curiosity I have

Confusion I'm in

So please

Help me define death

Earth

2007-05-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

Many years back

The sun ablaze

The moon alight

Breathtaking were the skies

Many years back

The trees once chat

The flowers once played

The animals once in harmony

Many years back

Proud were the mounts and hills

Almighty were the oceans

Greatful was the Earth deep in its core

Many years back

Beauty once lived

Happiness once arise

Peace was adored

In a place called Earth

Secrets

2007-04-26T18:42:00.001+08:00

My own

My world

Only me

And only will I know

But then...

Desire as I have

The desire to share

To share it with someone else

But who?

Whom shall I trust?

for this world of mine

Dark and lovely memoirs stay

Fright

2007-04-20T21:08:00.001+08:00

The world turns dark

Like a black hole in outerspace

Even if the sun

Shines bright above

Only fright

Touches your body

Only whispers of ghostly voices

That reaches your mind

Horrible thoughts begin to form

In that imaginative mind of yours

And that trickling cold sweat

Begins its presence

A dark black hole

You are in

For fright

Haunts you whether day or night

A Leader!

2007-03-24T16:44:00.001+08:00

In the morning dawn

I want to be the sun

That illuminates

The Earth

In the dark blue night

I want to be the moon

That shines

The ground below

In the unfairly human world

I want to be the leader

That leads others

In all their lifes

Never will I be

The sky

Nor the stars

Neither a follower

For I am a leader

That will lead forever!

Too Late for I Love You

2007-03-11T11:13:00.000+08:00

"Hello darling. How are you today? You look very beautiful like you always are," were all that she could hear from her boyfriend. Nevertheless, she was always sad with grieve. She had everything any girl could wish for. Charming, a good boyfriend, intelligence, you name it.....except for one.....eyes.

Lily was blind ever since she was borned. She had never accepted the fact that she was blind. However, there was a man, Chris who fell in love with her although he knew that she was blind. They have been together for like years. As years goes by, he loved her more each day. Lily on the other hand, she couldn't see the love that Chris was showering over her. Chris didn't mind at all. He waited patiently for the right time.

That night, when the moon shone brightly and the stars twinkling with joy, Chris took the chance to ask her this: "We have been together for so long. And even if you can't see me, you're still beautiful in my eyes. Lily dear.....would you marry me?" As soon as those soft, tender words reached her ears, Lily paused for a moment. She didn't know what to reply to that answer of her boyfriend. Therefore, she slowly and gently asked him to give her some time to think over it as to not break her dear boyfriend's feelings.

Although Lily's words had striked Chris's heart, he kept on thinking in a positive manner, hoping that after a few days of thoughts, Lily would say yes. Well, two days had gone by and Lily came up with an answer. It was hard to say it out to Chris knowing that he would be crushed but she gathered all her courage saying 'no'. Chris who was in curiosity asked " Why won't you marry me, Lily dear? Is it something wrong with me? or is it that I'm not good enough for you?" Lily in return said " No, Chris. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. You have been good to me. It is because of me that I can't be with you. I am blind, Chris. I want get married only when I am able to see the world. Seeing the world around for once and admiring you. So therefore, I have to say no. Sorry, Chris."

After that conflict, months later, Lily received a letter from the hospital. Lily's mother read it out to her. The content in this letter was this:

Dear Miss Lily,

We have found an organ donor who have willingly wished to donate a pair of eyes to you. Please do present yourself at the hospital as soon as possible.
Thanks.

Sincerely,
Dr. Vincent

Lily was flying sky high. She was so excited that she arranged for an appointment with Dr.Vincent the next day. Chris heard the news too and was also happy for her.

The day had come. Lily was going to have a pair of eyes! Her relatives had all present themselves at the hospital. However, the person Lily was looking for was not there. Chris was not there. Many questions began to form in her mind. " Was Chris angry with her? Had he found another woman outside?....." thought Lily. But now this isn't the time to worry about that. It was her dream to have eyes. Eyes that could see. Eyes that could admire everything around. Eyes that could do so much. The operation began and it went on for a few hours. Finally, Lily was out of the operation room.

Several days passed. It was time to undo the bandage on her new eyes. As the bandage was slowly undone, she could see a little light. Then to her mother and to everyone else. It was a miracle! " I can see! I can see! Oh my god! This is a miracle! Doctor, please do tell me who the donor is, oh please do tell!" said Lily with joy. A feeling she had never felt in all her life until now. Doctor Vincent replied " Sorry, Lily. The donor does not want to be known. But I am sure you will find out one day but for now, enjoy your eyes. See everything that you have always wanted. Congratulations, Lily. You are a lucky girl."

Again, days passed so fast for Lily. Chris appeared in her life again that very Sunday. The day before, he had called her to ask her to meet him at his appartment. That Sunday, Lily went to his appartment. The door of Chris' appartment was open. It was strange to find that the door was open. But as soon as Lily entered Chris' appartment, she was stunned. It seems like Chris' had been planning something for the both of them as the appartment was decorated with balloons and roses. Suddenly, Lily heard a voice at the back of her. It was Chris who had crept at the back of her to surprise Lily. He covered Lily's eyes with his hands and asked her not to look at him yet. There, Chris asked again, hoping that this time things work out, "Would you marry me, Lily dear?" Lily turned and took a look at Chris. Instead of feeling happy, she was instantly filled with disgust and hatred. She shouted with anger saying, " You're blind, Chris! How could you do this to me! I was blind and all this while, you did not tell me that you were blind! I will never, ever marry a blind man like you, Chris! I am sorry. I have to go now." Lily quickly left the appartment without even staying to listen to Chris' part of the story. Chris on the other hand, he felt so deppressed, dissappointed, and useless. For the whole day, Chris was only thinking over and over again of the words Lily used on him. "I will never marry a BLIND man!" was what Lily said.

The next day, Lily received a letter from Chris. She opened it and read it. The letter said this:

Dear Lily darling,

To tell you the truth, I was not borned blind. I used to admire the nature around like you are now. Watching you smile, watching you cry, watching you touching my face. Those were times when I had eyes to see. But now, just several days ago, I had gave my eyes to a person that I've devoted all my heart to. You are having my eyes, Lily darling. Please do take care of them. Hopefully, even if we part now, those pair of eyes you are having now will still give you memories I had when I was with you. Therefore, Lily dear, treasure them with care. Goodbye now. It is time for us to move on in our lives. Hope you are happy with my eyes.
Remember, I love you no matter what.

Love,
Chris
(Your donor)

When Lily read it, she felt a sudden guilt in her heart. Tears began to flow out from those pair of eyes. "It was Chris all along. This is his eyes. How could I be so cruel to him?" thought Lily to herself. That morning, Lily drove to Chris' apartment to ask for forgiveness. However, as soon as she arrived, a crowd was already in front of the appartment. Lily hurried over to the crowd to see what was happening. There, laying on the road, was Chris' body, bleeding non-stop. Lily couldn't believe it. "It was all my fault," thought Lily. And she took another glance at Chris and she saw in his hands, was a photo of her and Chris. They were smiling and hugging each other in a beautiful park which was where they first met.

Lily knew now. It was too late for her to say sorry or just a word of thank you and 'I love you' that Chris really deserved all along. Only those pair of eyes she is carrying now that could remind her of Chris.

Foolish Overcome Smartness

2007-03-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

Learnt I have

Though impossible it may seem

That even the most intelligent man

Is the fool amongst us

Lonely he can be

Deserted will he be

As he is too dilligent

For us all to connect him

Believe In Yourself

2007-03-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes

What you see

Is not what you see

And what you hear

Is not what you hear

Thus

Look with your heart

And listen with your soul

As it is the believe in yourself

That makes the whole thing real

Time Flickers By

2007-03-09T20:27:00.001+08:00

Time flickers by

Like the speed of light

Not even a second

Will it turn back

Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!

It says

'I'm moving forward

So must you'

Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!

It says again

'I'll never come back

So treasure me

Before I go'

Time flickers by

Some of us

May never have the chance

To do something meaningful

Till' time flickers by

Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!

It says once more

'I'm sorry

If you're left behind

But I must move

So don't waste my time!'